When I became a mother, my heart began to grasp the vastness of God’s love for me in an entirely new way. My complete adoration for my children and unrelenting desire to love, care for, and protect them gave me fresh glimpses and deeper understanding of how my heavenly Father feels towards me and all His children.
But being a mom also opened my eyes to my darkness. I never realized my sinful nature was so damagingly marked by anger, rage, control, and selfishness —until I had kids.
For me, embracing motherhood has been an internal wrestling match over motherhood’s great dichotomies: how the people you love the most can bring out the worst in you; how the greatest blessing can become the greatest challenge; how you can be with your kids all day but you still have to purpose to be present; how motherhood defines you yet it’s not the definition of all of you.
I pray that through these words your heart will find encouragement as you hear me whisper, “Yeah, me too.”
A few of my favorite Embracing Motherhood posts:
I don’t want to stay stuck in the haze that I miss out on being amazed.
I don’t want the pain and drain to be my main refrain.
I don’t want to erase these days when I could embrace these days. Read more…
White dairy liquid leaking down the front of kitchen cabinets, spilling into cracked-open drawers. A silky pool slick over granite counter top, soaking into cereal boxes.
Yelling mama. Read more…
When I was seven, my best friend was a boy named Jack. He lived up a windy road on a hill that felt like a mountain. My mom knew the pass code for the huge black gate. When the wrought iron swung open my heart swung free.
I kissed my mom goodbye and promised to be good. Then off we ran—me and Jack. Read more…
I grew up on Little House on the Prairie reruns and flannel board Sunday school lessons. Good and wholesome. But somewhere between Nellie Oleson’s antics and the fabric loaves and fishes, I missed a few key points.
Like what I believed about the Sabbath. Read more…
I don’t want to admit it, really, I don’t…but some days the the overflow of my heart is not love and kindness and joyful training for my boys. Read more…
Find more Embracing Motherhood posts here.